FAITHFUL lyrics - Macklemore (feat. NLE Choppa)

 Feel like I'm running out of time

And the sun won't shine forever, forever

I got my mind on my money

And my money man fuck it whatever, whatever

Sometimes I wake up on the wrong side

I don't even feel like getting up

With this depression on my brain

Hope it change but the rain ain't letting up

Can't call it, don't know where my head is

Reflecting on Malcolm, and the shit I thought but never said it

To Peter, Robin, to Kevin... all my other friendships

That could have, would have, should have and then they ended

I isolate between happiness and hopeless

Know what makes it worse? Still wanna get loaded

Sometimes I feel like I can't control my choices

And something takes over and I can't turn off the voices

Sitting with these thoughts can't escape 'em, can't run

Got some bullets in the dresser as I polish my... gun

They say that a day clean is a day won

But I'm holding on, praying to a God abandoned

Zoning on the couch, staring at my daughters

Know there's a pill in this house that I'm obsessing about popping

Reservations talking, the push and pull of the conscience

Should probably pick up the phone and call my sponsor but don't wanna

When the percs don't work, zannys won't calm you down

Not enough liquor in the bar weed grown in the ground

Trapped by these walls where my brain can't get out

Wondering if my mama have to put her son in the ground

We still going when the day break

Me and the homies on the same page

Find me in the whip, that's my safe place

Feel like I'm getting weak, I need some AA

Need someone to pray for my soul right now

Everything's looking gray, and there's no white clouds

I don't what to say, I got nothing to write down

On my knees questioning God, like why now?

I'm lost, but I'm found again

I'm up all night, I toss and turn

I love my life, I got concerns

I've been through hell, on some FML

It's just as well, I might lose it

I need some light, I need some air

I might be broken, I need repair

Don't got the answers, think I'm confused

I ask myself: who are you?

I need you right now Mack to wake up more than ever

Ain't no more weed, alcohol, and popping pills, et cetera

I know these days gettin' rough but they get better

It's a cold world, let's go to the Gucci store for a sweater

Feel it deeply in my heart you need this letter

So I pour my feelings out to you before I go and mail it

I don't know what I'm sensing, but I can smell it

When you write me back just tell it

I'ma soak it up, inhale it

Heard you got a daughter, well I got one too

And she too beautiful, barely see her too

Do you hug her and tie her shoes?

Is she reflecting of you?

And got a smile that bloom?

Before you load that gun and shoot

Just know that she be needing you

The best version of you too

I would write more but my day about to break

We can meet up face to face

Just let me know if that's ok

We still going when the day break

Me and the homies on the same page

Find me in the whip, that's my safe place

Feel like I'm getting weak, I need some AA

Need someone to pray for my soul right now

Everything's looking gray, and there's no white clouds

I don't what to say, I got nothing to write down

On my knees questioning God, like why now?

I'm lost, but I'm found again